I normally do not share my goals for the new year. I guess thats my way of protecting myself from every one seeing me fall short. Because I honestly always do. It's not for lack of try but rather lack of planning. I get these huge goals and big dreams, and then boom... no plan... life happens. So for me I discovered a few things this year. 1. Gotta have a plan if I want to see those dreams become reality. 2. In order to keep a plan moving forward, you have to be intentional. That's when it all came to me. The Lord just kept bringing to thought, "be intentional". And then He showed me this verse. I know. I know. It's a very popular verse. He didn't show me anything new right. Actually, I just looked at it differently. Normally you see the words "Be still..." but for me I read a different version that used the translation "Cease striving.." THIS. HIT. HOME. (and the Lord's probably like, finally!) It hit home because I am always looking to do more. be more. multitask. make lists. read this blog. read that tutorial. get better here. start a garden. teach myself to knit. teach myself how to can. run a marathon. make my own lotion, lip balm, cleaning supplies..... all this pressure!!!!!!! I am sorry. I am done. I believe I am done trying to be it all. I believe I am done trying to improve myself by the worlds standards.
You see, at first thought you would think that to be intentional, it contradicts trying to cease striving. That is when it hit me! Those two ideas can coincide. In order to remind myself to cease striving I have to INTENTIONALLY make myself stop. Stop the to-do lists. Stop the social media. Stop the distraction. I aim to be intentional right where I am. That moment. Sometimes that is as simple as sitting with Cord as he plays or kissing Steve in the moment. Other times it looks more like sitting and reflecting, praying intentionally over those God puts on my heart. It's bad when I have to remind myself to pray for.... me. When did that get lost? When the world tells me as a woman, as a mom, put all others first. Of course I have the nature to pour into others, but if I'm not healthy/happy mentally then how am I of any good use?
I share all of that in order that maybe just a simple change of translation can help you totally grasp the importance of Psalm 46:10. It did for me. My challenge this year is to redefine what it looks like to be an intentional person. And it all starts with the verse "Cease striving"....
- So heres to 2016! Happy trails ya'll