It’s that time of year for small business owners. When you review your year and set goals for the upcoming year. Happy Trails Photography was always meant to be my ministry. I knew it would be bigger than myself one day. With that I also knew I’d find challenges along the way. That has been my fuel at times. Photography has given me that. But now, something else is competing for those same areas of my life, Motherhood. While motherhood is evolving me as a person, it has also changed my photography. I have found myself working to find that balance between being mom and a business owner. And photography is fragile. It takes your all. Full focus, full energy. It is something you cannot do successfully without allowing yourself to utilize your emotions. That is one of my favorite things about it. It can also be one of the most challenging and most draining. I never want to “give-up” on my dreams of doing photography, but I also never want to half-heartedly pursue that dream. When I choose to do something, it tends to consume me. That has always been one of my weaknesses. In order for me to find my balance during this time in my life, I am choosing to“close shop” on Happy Trails Photography. I was initially only going to take a few months off with the new baby coming in March, but the Lord has put it on my heart to commit an entire year(or so)… and give it to Him. At first, this scared the crap out of me! With photography being such a competitive business, I am totally scared to step out of the ring and just throw it all in the wind. I don’t want to loose everything I have worked so hard to build. But I also never want to hold myself back by holding something too close. I feel this decision is kind of like parenting. I will have to do the same with my children one day, let them go. Here I am, letting go of my baby that is Happy Trails Photography and taking a step in faith, “Commit your works to the Lord and your plans will be established.” Proverbs 16:3 and one of my all-time favorites, “He has made everything beautiful in it’s time.” Ecclesiastes 3:11 There is a season for everything under the sun. Right now, my season is Motherhood. And I love that. So that is exactly what I am going to do. Let ‘er fly. I pray in this time I exceed all personal goals of being both a wife and mother. You can expect to see me behind the camera still, any chance I get, but my subjects will change from clients, to family and our ranch life. As for Happy Trails, I have always felt its future would evolve from portrait work to fine art. That has always been an itch of mine. Maybe this is the first step towards that transition? Maybe I will find my true self through photography during this season of “letting go”. Who knows.
I could’ve just closed the books for 2017 and went about my day but I felt I needed to share my inspiration. Maybe this will speak to you somehow. It has been a decision I tried to ignore. Trust me, this last year I have been scratching and clawing for every thing photography, trying to just soak every bit in that I could. But that has all taken too much of me. Steve has had to pick up way too much of my slack. (thank the Lord for a supportive husband) I can’t ask him, I won’t, when we have more than one little one running around. I brought this up to Steve a while back, asking him to be praying about it with me. A few months later, as soon as I said it out loud, and told Steve I am officially done with Happy Trails, I immediately had peace about it. Here I was expecting sadness!? Fear was replaced with excitement and anticipation of what is to come for our family. I cannot wait. I am so thankful to be able to take this time to sit and wait. (I may need help with the sitting part.)
As for Happy Trails Photography, I will no longer be taking clients but rather shooting what I am most passionate about, and that is ranching. Follow me over on Instagram @happytrailsphoto to stay up to date! Slowly but surely, I will be opening an online shop for products such as fine art prints and coffee table books, but I will take my time on this one. ;) And thank you to all of my past clients! It has always meant the world to work with you. Much love friends.